• pink pony boy • It’s as though I was destined for this l..

• pink pony boy •

It’s as though I was destined for this life. Nature versus nurture, that really is the question. Raised by a dancer myself, I was always around this world. Whether that be dancing naked in the mirror at 5 because “that’s what mommy did,” learning how to steal money from men to survive at ten, getting SAd at that age as well only to not be believed & furthermore grounded as though I should’ve known better (when he was 5 years my senior.) Then in turn becoming hypersexual to mask a need for affection and closeness, a hole needing to be filled where the neglect sat with pigtails a feet swinging, day dreaming about getting out of halfway houses though those were better than park benches on cold desert nights. Mothers do what they have to. Women have always done what they have to. And I like mine before me knew that to have a better chance than she had - I would step up and do anything. But as a rebel in lingerie , I was going to do it my way. Sex work to me now has never been what I see in my memories. I don’t have to bring strange people into my safe spaces, around my family, no one touches me other than my Wife who I know cares for me delicately who respects my body, worships me. I feel fortunate to have curated a safe space for both our bodies, different in every way and yet we both share the vulnerability, the need for connection, to be humans amongst humans at our rawest form. It would be unjust of me to blame my career path on my upbringing, I AM passionate about self pleasure. About taking our bodies back because they were not conquests to be won by anyone else and we were here first. I am passionate about healthy intimacy between consenting adults - because I, as many others, know that just because you are in a relationship doesn’t mean you can’t be taken advantage of and then have to see them brushing their teeth in the mirror the next morning. We are mammals with these magical forms, full of nerve endings and emotions, a sex can be as spiritual as it is carnal. So that leaves me about as passionate as I am experienced. So, nature versus nurture; I guess I’ll never know. But I digress, I love my job, and my sexuality. It is my power, and my peace. Stability and sensuality. Born to be or not to be, I will remain a pink pony boy on a cinematic stage, just having fun, and I’m gonna keep on dancing.