• close up • There are some angles humans just weren't mean..
Added 2024-09-03 12:57:22 +0000 UTC• close up •
There are some angles humans just weren't meant to see of themselves. I'd say this is one of them. I get asked often how it feels to edit back these videos, how s work makes me feel about my body, does it affect my confidence, etc. The answer isn't the easiest to put into words because, again, I really don't think I was ever meant to look at myself like this. Editing is this odd, out of body experience. At first it was difficult to ignore what i would call flaws on my body. Id ruminate over thoughts of insecurities and wondered if anyone here watching would notice them or call them out. No one ever did. In fact, no one on any platform ever does. Its healing, the repetitive silent reassurance that only I pay attention to those parts of me. Only I see them as flaws. And no one else pays them any mind. I'm just human. I just have a body. And that body is enough as it is. I now post more everywhere without judging myself so harshly. Bad angle, bad hair day, no one will notice except me. I can compartmentalize the person on the screen as just a body. The sounds are just audio. The positions are just camera angles. I have become my own actor, stylist, writer, director, editor and each part of me works with the others to create a cohesive product. That product, also happens to be me. And I am always ready for my close-up.
