This Christmas Eve just feels odd to me. Last year I spent i..
Added 2020-12-24 23:56:34 +0000 UTCThis Christmas Eve just feels odd to me. Last year I spent it with someone who definitely didn’t care for me at all. It’s crazy it’s been a year since that experience. To be honest I’m pretty sad.. losing a friend who I did spend a lot of time with and staying at his place..it’s really just been tough. I’ve found in life people I’ve met who I have strong connections with have passed away. Just makes life sad. I wonder if I’ll ever have a Christmas where I have a special someone who genuinely cares about me. In the last year I’ve experienced quite a few narcissists and I don’t think I can take much more.. I know isn’t the best post but I just wanted to vent my mind some and it’s just been a rough month. Hopefully in 2021 I’ll make a post on Christmas Eve and my world be better. I have learned to appreciate things more so now than I did in the past. There’s been some silver linings to this pandemic.. however I hope eventually things will be normal. And if you are still reading so far, I appreciate your support and generosity. I’ll continue to work out and improve myself. I know some of y’all will stick around to see that ass. I’ll be okay.. I guess the older we age.. it’s just Christmas loses its sparkle, especially as you stay single through this pandemic.
